Sunday, 15 June 2008

Maybe.

You know you truly care for someone when you always wanna see him happy, and you're willing to make a fool of yourself and crack a really lame joke just to bring a smile to his face. You know you care for someone when everytime he's down and he feels crappy, somehow you feel less than good too, no matter how gorgeous you look that day. You know, when you look good, you feel good? Yeah, well, it doesn't always work that way, does it?

It's not always good, I'm not always on my best behaviour, sometimes I act precious and difficult, and sometimes I'm being immature and unreasonable. And so is the other party.

You can know just as far as he's willing to let you in, and how do you know how much? I'm not talking about my relationship right now in particular, I'm speaking generally. Of course, there were good times and great times, but there were also shitty times and frustrated times, and after a while, I guess you just had to wonder, is this all worth it? If you end up being sad and angry most of the time, then what's the point in keeping the relationship? If it can't make you a happier person, then what's the use?

It's hard to read between the lines, it's hard to keep yourself in check when you give someone yourself. They say we shouldn't give one hundred percent for a relationship, or that perhaps, that you still have to keep your options open. Once you're in it, though, how could you control your feelings? How could you set a percentage point in yourself when it comes to this? It's not as if you can just switch a lever and pick a number, 'ah, for this one only 50 percent, lah..aiya, for this one okay lah, 70 percent enough la..and 30 percent only la for that one, he snores..' Well, that would just make things a lot easier.

But until the day comes, I guess we just have to trust our gut and hopefully, we're still smart enough not to ignore our logic and common sense.

What I'm trying to say is, well, it isn't easy. Perhaps the perfect relationship is supposed to be effortless, I don't know. Maybe the fact that you still wanna stick around even when he's not perfect means something. But it takes two to tango.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

No relationship is effortless, not even the one you have with your own self. But at the end of the day, it's supposed to be GOOD. =)