I'm scared of change.
Now, it's not such a good quality to have, because not only it makes me very boring and predictable, but also that means that it gets too easy for me to be stuck in my own comfort zone, not moving at all. Sometimes I need a push. Something or someone to remind me not to stop going forward.
It took me a while to get here, but I made a promise to myself at the start of this year that I will make a major change in my life. Because when I looked back to the things that I've done and achieved last year, I'm not happy. I'm not happy being where I am now, and I realized that if I don't do something about it, I will be in this exact same position 5 years down the road and wonder, why the heck am I doing here?
This year is going to be good on me, I know it. And that push finally happened, and I'm more determined than ever to make a change even though it's scary. It's scary stepping out from what's familiar to uncharted territories. But it's necessary in order to grow. And I know that it's about time.
At the end of the day, what's important is your happiness. What's the point of staying if it's not even rewarding anymore? Doing something day by day just because you have to. There has to be something in it than that.
I'm scared but excited. But baby, bring it on.