Thursday, 10 January 2008

Sleeping...Supposed to Rest Your Body? Well, Think Again.

By now, you should have known about my two little brothers who have just redefined the terms 'oh,i'm-just-too-cool-for-camera-my-face-is-worth-a-thousand-pounds-I-only-want-to-get-my-picture-taken-by-professional-photographers-not-by-these-amateurs-I-wouldn't-be-caught-dead-with-an-actual-expression-on-my-face!' And okay, sometimes I can be a bit overbearing with the camera, but my point is, you've seen them when they're awake. And they could put Mr. Subzero himself to shame.

But you haven't seen anything yet before you get your hands on these.


Eeeeeerrrrrghh!! I feel something! Is that someone pressing down my body???!! You shall pay!

10 minutes later..

I'm the Kungfu master, ciaaaaaaattttt!! I will kick whoever who dares ruin my goodnight sleep! Now, feel this, my notorious Tsunami Kick, which should be performed with my eyes closed and my arms scretched out like this! Haiiiiaaaaa! Bukkk! Bukk! Bukkk!!


Good. So you've learnt your lesson. Go away from me. As long as you don't mess with me, I won't pick a fight. Now you've tasted my powerful Tsunami Kick, you won't dare go near me again. I see you've turned away, good choice. I shall practice my zen-meditation now. My legs bent like this, yes, and my eyes are to remained close at all times!


Aaaahhh!! Okay okay, I'm sorrrryyy!! I wasn't aware before that you're Tai-chi level twelve Master! Okay I'll behave! And your Tsunami Kick is definitely deadlier! I admit defeat!

Mwahahaha! Go away! This is my bed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Excuse me???? Hello??? Actually, it is my bed! I should have slept in the other half of the bed while you continued hassling each other. Seriously, it was like watching a comedy. Night entertainment for free. Priceless.

If they're quite a handful when they're fully awake, then they're....two hands plus two legs plus one nose one mouth two eyes two ears-full when they're sleeping! Which is a lot worse!

Wednesday, 9 January 2008

Mad About John - an Article, Attempt #1


John Cusack was born on June 28, 1966 in Evanston, a northern district of Chicago. His father, Richard, worked in an advertising agency but later found out that he wasn’t satisfied with it. In 1970, he strived for a more substantial life, forming a production company and moving into documentary film-making. Mother, Nancy was a school-teacher-turned-a-full-time-mother to her five children, Ann, Joan, Bill, John, and Susie.

Life at the Cusack household was nowhere near ordinary, to say the least. Soon enough it became clear that the five siblings were so into the world of acting. They would imitate scenes from movies; so much that John described his childhood as ‘one continuous performance’. But he wasn’t just talking. By the age of 8 he enrolled in Piven Theatre Workshop, run by family friends, Byrne and Joyce Piven, together with his sisters, Ann and Joan, and Jeremy, the Piven’s son, who would later be John’s lifelong friend.

John confessed hating his time at Evanston Township High School because he felt like an outsider, but he kept himself busy – watching European films, American classics, black-and-white-flicks, anything, determined to learn everything there is to know about this fast-growing fascination and passion of his. By the time he was 12, he already got a lot on his belt, doing radio spots acting and commercial voice-overs. At 14, John had starred in many stage productions and was already known as ‘a brilliant and generous improviser’.

During the ‘80s, John played in more other movies, including “Class”, “Sixteen Candles”, “Better Off Dead”, “The Sure Thing”, and “The Journey of Natty Gann”. These movies did little to John’s big movie stardom status, but like he cared. By this time, John was even more determined to pursue career in film and he gulped each and every movie experience with passion and dedication like a sponge. Filming “The Sure Thing” introduced John to co-star Tim Robbins, who is a big influence on his career and attitude. Robbins inspired him to form New Crime Theatre in his hometown with childhood friend, Jeremy Piven, where he began directing plays.

At early twenties, Cusack was already mature and experienced, he surely knew what he wanted and a lot of times he turned down good movie offers, which seemed foolish, but hey, the guy had his own standards. Then came “Say Anything”, his probably-most memorable and biggest role yet. He played Llyod Dobler, who he later admitted as being so much alike as him. John’s performance in ‘Say Anything’ proved that he could carry a leading role, portraying a hopeless-loser and made him very charmingly likeable. Suddenly Cusack was an unlikely sex-symbol.

But John didn’t intend to be a sex-symbol, or the object of females’ obsession. Or even a celebrity. He’d always hated the pretentious world of Hollywood, but realized that he had to go there to make movies. What he wanted was to be a serious actor with complex roles. We got to admire him for that.

And so the ‘90s marks beginning of John’s journey in more versatile and grown-up roles. He also wrote a comedy-thriller script called “Grosse Pointe Blank”, which was turned into a movie by Disney. “High Fidelity”, his other memorable role, allowed him to star, as well as co-produced and wrote the scores. (He did not disappoint. I’ve seen it.)

If we were to mention all of John’s works and achievements, it will be a very long list. By 2006, he already had almost 50 movies under his belt and there is no sign of him stopping, or even taking a breath. Cusack has a mind of his own, one that is probably not understood by all; his continuing loathing for celebrities, his love for literature and passion for film-making. He will not for a second feel down if his movie fails to hit the blockbuster, that’s for sure. We are bound to respect him, it’s hard not to. Well, and the fact that he's an active humanitarian probably makes it almost impossible, even.

John Cusack has gone a long way. From his early childhood at a small town in Chicago with five siblings and determined parents, to a well-rounded, passionate, unique and brilliant artist who knows what he wants, is not afraid to fail and dares to be different.

Where does he go on from now, you ask? Continue what he does best. Acting? Writing? Directing? Hating the superficiality of Holywood? You choose. I can’t decide.

"The more you expose yourself as a celebrity, the less interesting you are to watch in your work, because if you're putting yourself out there all the time, you're not holding anything back."

Toshiba is the New Laptop


When you were told you could make any purchase in 15 minutes time, you would probably think of buying a new toothpaste, or stocking milk for home. Or, say you were to splurge a lot amount of money, you would say 'shut up you bloody nuisance! I need as much time in the world to decide which shoes to buy, it's afterall a 600 bucks worth of real money!' to anyone who kept telling you to hassle.

So what if I told you that I bought a new laptop today when the sun was still high on one-go under fifteen minutes of contemplating?

You probably would share my dear friend's reaction on this.

Me: I bought Toshiba hahaha. I feel so poor now haha.
Him: What? Why? When? Where? How? My gosh! Which model?! Tina! R u crazy? Faint..

I think the fainting part is so hilarious.

So, anyway. It's not like it's a spontaneous purchase, it's not like I was out there in the mall where laptops' exhibitions were taking place and suddenly I just got strucked by lightning and I thought to myself, "Gee, how nice it would be to own a brand new laptop" and five minutes later, walked out from the store and was at least 1000 bucks poorer.

At least I wasn't like that! I have been wanting a new laptop for a while cos my current one is below useable and sometimes it would just shut down on its own. Is it trying to go berserk and betray me?! I've been taking such good care of you and this is how you repay me, you ungrateful piece of gadget?! I might not scrub your screen everyday, I might not do some disk clean-up for years, I might not even provide you with anti-virus sometimes, but I do love you! I think of you every night before I go to sleep and I can't live a day without you! Your keypads might be rusty, some parts of your body might be missing, and your battery might not be inspirational for your kinds anytime soon, but I still constantly change your wallpaper and I always upgrade my pictures in you regularly. So there is no reason to throw temper tantrum on me, is there?

Unless, you are simply too old for me. Your many years of life experience just doesn't impress me anymore and the parts in you which I initially thought sexy just isn't any longer, but it's not your fault. It's just, your youth has already passed you by and that left me with no choice but to replace you with someone younger and newer. Please don't hold this against me. I promise I won't destroy you, I will just sell you. Some of your components might still be used to create another computer and isn't that just very beautiful? You will be regenerated, you will be united with nature. That is the greatest gift anyone can ever give because destroying you will be useless and is against the environment, and you know best that I am nothing but environmentally friendly.

OH MY GOD WHAT AM I TALKING ABOUT???!!!! WHAT GIBBERISH HAVE I SAID???!!! FOCUS!!

Where was I? Ah yes, about the motives behind the purchase. Yes, it wasn't such an impulse purchase because it's laptop, not some cleaning-liquid to scrub your toilet bowl. But I thought I would need more time to decide and browse around to look for alternatives and options. I honestly haven't looked at anything quite yet. I just needed a new laptop but I haven't actually done anything on that behalf like any other normal human being would, such as 1)going to SimLim or Funan to check prices, 2)log in some websites to look for models and build some preferences, or at least I should have 3)call my dad and tell him that I'm going to buy a new laptop as in...today! Or 4)do anything at all! The fact that I could just go out there and go home with a brand new laptop which just took about 15 minutes to ask for enquiries, compare prices, compare models, decide and purchase is somewhat an achievement in itself. Or was I just crazy like my friend said?

No, I'd like to think it's deeply impressive. And bold. With just a side of crazy. A little bit.

I just think it would confuse me more if I look at more options in more places, don't you think? Besides, this one right here is great enough, and the price is just suitable. It's not like I need it to create a new rocket or something. I just need it for daily use, considering that I'm somewhat rather technology-challenged myself. If I were given the newest laptop with the most advanced features, I would still only use it for the Microsoft Office and MSN and look at a waste I'd be making. Ha!

It's Toshiba, by the way. And I wished it could come in white or red, but nope, it's standard boring black. Good thing it's glossy. It's great that it's glossy. Sorry, don't mean to insult you, my dear old laptop. But you ought to go to the left, to the left, or so Beyonce said.

Since it's Windows Vista, I ought to get some getting used to, but it's not that much different, really. And the RAM is so fast, it took me more than an hour just to copy the contents of my old laptop to a drive until I practically fell asleep waiting for it, and my sister had to wake me up, otherwise the damn thing would be running all night, but pasting it here to the new one is as fast as peeing itself.
Anyway, my damn camera is so failing me. Since Sis just bought a new phone herself, with a five-megapixels camera, that is, I'll ask her to take properly good picture of my new baby here, haha. 'TIl then!

Monday, 7 January 2008

Last Day


Tonight my cousins are going back home and as much as I'm relieved (because I am exhausted too from keeping an eye on them 24/7), there's a sense of dread too that yeah, this is it, it's time everything goes back to normal and I have to start being busy and making up for lost time, months that I let myself forget and let go of all the daily routines. I know I will be okay, but things always seem scarier than they actually do.

For one thing, I've been contacting my lecturer in regard of my missed exams and I have to take the make-up exams as soon as I can. As if I want to drag it any further. There's nothing I would love more than settle the unsettled and move on, and I'm not just talking about school. But there are a lot of things that are going on in my mind and they wouldn't just take a single day of sitting inside a classroom to settle, that's what I'm scared of.

But one thing I know is that I'm tired of playing games. Life's just too short to be spent wondering and guessing and I know I deserve no such thing so just talk to me. I'm a big girl, I can handle the truth. I wanna know where I stand. I wanna know if I can trust you again.

Sorry, been kinda unfocused today, it must be the weather.

On lighter note, what do you think about my new blog and multiply theme? I know it's real girly, huh? I personally love the multiply theme. The blogger one is simple and cute but it can still do better, I was browsing around and trying out stuffs yesterday, this would have to do for now.

And, remember my obsession about the samsung camera?

I may have to postpone that for now ('failure is a postponed success', and that is me telling you that the camera will be mine, eventually, someday, in the future, haha) but for now I need a new laptop. There are lots of promotions but the best one I've seen so far was this small Acer which costs only $990. Will have to still keep a lookout for others.

Gotta go take dearest double cous to airport now.

Saturday, 5 January 2008

A Day at Sentosa

We have survived to live for another day! Despite being dragged down, soaked wet, drenched cold, torn apart, and stomped hard by the mercilessly rain (and I'm exaggerating just a tiny winy bit), it was a fun day! The part about the rain was right, though, it was raining really hard this afternoon in the middle of our adventure in Sentosa and we were practically bathing in the water filled with dirt and I don't wanna know what else. No, really, I don't. It was traumatic enough.

I'm not complaining, really! It's just..it would have been perfect if it hadn't been raining..fine, I'm complaining but this is just so typical! We actually planned to go to Sentosa yesterday but it was cloudy so we postponed it to today in fear of rain but of course! it ended up not raining yesterday and today, you ask? It just couldn't get any wetter than this! The universe might not revolve around us but I swear it feels damn like it sometimes!

We woke up at 8 because the movie was supposed to be at 11 and we were nothing but punctual! Hey, I am totally punctual, mind you. When we got there to Tiong Bahru, it was still too early and the ticketing office hasn't even opened yet so we settled for brunch at Long John first. Well, it's not like I'm a bad sister for just feeding them fast food but cousins have never heard of Long John right until today so they wanted to give it a try. We had the breakfast set: french toast, egg cheese, bacon and fish sandwiches. Respectively, not for me only! Geez!



Afterwards...movie time! Snap some pictures inside the theater. I was once scolded for posing in front of a movie poster at Cinelasuire as if I was trying to steal a child or something. What, violation of copyright? If that's the case, then I'm deeply sorry personally to Alvin and The Chipmunks.



The Golden Compass was great, as expected. There were only a few people inside the theater so I could lift my legs up as I liked without being scrutinized for having smelly feet. Ha!

When we first got to Harbor Front it still looked promisingly sunny. We took cable car to Sentosa and enthusiastically bought tickets for the luge! Romi was so confident he could beat us all up but cockiness is dangerous, my dear! He hit the corner of the lane and his 'vehicle' fell to the side, following soon enough was an evil mocking laugh and shoutings from..um..me,..really????! My voice seemed like a blade in the serenity of the park....*sound of cricket* What is wrong with the people?! It was supposed to be fun and noisy! Yet I was the only one yelling 'Romi!!!! You fell! You fell!! I win! I win! I win! I wiiiiiinnnnn!!!!!!!'



I was already in near euphoria right until I was reminded that I just beat a 12-year-old boy in a less than 3-minutes game. Afterwards I just felt embarrassed. At least I had my moments.


Dwiki manuveuring his luge in the finishe line.


Walking to the skytrain which would take us back up from the luge's finish area. As far as I know, he only has one facial expression. We called him Jay Chou. Duh.

A skytrain, a 4-D simulation and a whole lot of drenching and soaking in rain later, it was becoming all too clear that we wouldn't be able to go to the beach and do some kayaking as planned, and besides it was already almost dinner time so we took the cable car back and had fabulous dinner at Marche.


with Vivo as the background.


Big dinner.

So we all seemed happy but it's already 2 in the morning now and I can't be happier from looking at the boys sleeping peacefully! I'm beat, really, and tomorrow we have another sets of plan lining up so I'm hitting the sack soon. I've been having a really bad flu since three days ago so I need to grab a bite and take some medicine now.

Back Here

I swear, it was still June 2007 and before I knew it, it's 2008 already? What? I blinked and I breathed and time has somehow outran me and left me so far behind? So I might not be the most athletic person on the planet but this is just surreal.

Okay, past that time-travelling thing, I'm back in Singapore at the moment and it would have been pretty lonely and weird being here after spending almost half a year back home, away from all the convenience the maids and drivers have provided, away from the comfort of being taken care of, away from not worrying of skimping, well you get the point, pretty much away from all the pampering and princess-like-previledges, okay, okay, I'll stop now for real. But, two of my dearest little cousins are here for holiday so eventhough they can be quite a handful, well, two handfulls to be exact, they flawlessly managed to throw away all the negative things so I'm really grateful for them.

We spent the whole day taking them around today and now they're sleeping peacefully and that's the only time they ever shut up! So for now only, I am beyond grateful of my super comfortable bed!

Anyway, I've been trying to post pictures in my photo album and I just didn't have the patience! I wanted to post pictures which was taken during my stay in Jakarta so they are a lot, and I mean, a lot, of them but that's not the problem. Apparently the size of the pictures taken by the camera was so large it took the whole eternity and more just to upload them. Hey, if it's just an issue of the time but I'm sure it's actually in the process of uploading, then I can wait, or I can just turn the computer on while I'm doing something else which makes it not that unbearable. The thing is, sometimes the downloading process would just stop in the middle with no indication whatsoever!! I could have just waited 'til all my hair turns white and the only thing happening besides my youth flashes before my eyes, is the grass growing! By the time I was totally sure it wasn't moving, I had already wasted so much time on...on what? Yes! On absolutely nothing!

So I'm doing it little by little as much as my patience could hold. Yipee!

Anyway. We went to Suntec, Esplanade, Orchard, Clementi and Boonlay today, see, we're not wasting any time!

with Cous #1 while waiting for our prata. Geez, could he look more excited?


...and Cous #2 who's absolutely a doll.

Tomorrow's going to be an early day again cos we're going for a movie and then to Sentosa. It's gonna be great.

Ah, I absolutely love having my internet again;)

Friday, 28 December 2007

Countdown

Happy hols, people!

I know I should have more materials to write, but I have nothing new to tell these days! Hey, the fact that I just admitted that I had nothing exciting to blog is a material in itself, no???

Okay. It'll be the shortest post,then.

I'll be back on the 3rd and I'm sure to write more then! Cos even when I don't have anything to write about there, I could always comment on the funny bus drivers, flirtatious apartment guard, aunties and uncles in the hawkers, and myself, hahahaha!!!

In the mean time, here's to welcoming the new year!

Friday, 21 December 2007

A Year's Reflection

Every year, at least these past three to four years that I started writing in this blog regularly and seriously, I always write some sort of reflection and resolution every time my birthday is drawing near. It probably holds no purpose to you but it does to me. It becomes a habit and a-given to somehow, summarize another year that has passed and although a number is just a number and I don’t necessarily give too much emphasis on age anyway, but I think the gesture is just appropriate.

This year has been so surreal. I experienced things I never thought I would, but time still moves on, and now one more year is being added to my unimpressive life resume and so I need this. I need to write something – anything to channel all these thoughts.

This day exactly last year I thought I’d seen everything, but I realized now that it was nothing. Yet, despite all that, I still felt like I haven’t done quite enough last years and I guess there are always bound to be some regrets or things you wished you haven’t done, no matter how fortunate and lucky your life has been. If I wasn’t even satisfied with myself last year when things were a lot better, then how could I be now?

Life has definitely been surreal for me; anything but fortunate. Every time I turn around, there just seemed to be yet another surprise being thrown at my direction and I can tell you for certain that I don’t like most of them. But what happened, happened. People who saw me emerge from this grief, this vindictive and cruel reality said that I am strong, that even though it has been very difficult, I still could move on and they admired me for that. They said I’m mature. I don’t mean to shrug off or dismiss their opinions, because hey, if there are any persons who think I’m strong and mature, then let them be. But no. What everyone saw was a person who was forced to deal, and that to me wasn’t maturity at all.

The real person who has emerged from this whole ordeal was someone who has completely lost faith; someone who doesn’t give a crap anymore about wishing; and someone who thinks that people are just supposed to deal and accept everything that happened because we have no other choice. I felt cheated by everything I used to believe in and I was anti-social for the longest time. What you get is a really pessimistic and bitter person. It didn’t seem like me, but it must have been me.

I spent more than half this year with my parents. I tried to be there for this family although sometimes it seemed really difficult, and if there is one thing I regret the most about myself, is this. Nobody has ever had any idea at how much I wish that I could turn back time.

When I was in Perth to take care of my mom, I was so frustrated and tired. I was complaining constantly about how much time I have spent there and about how many classes I had to miss because of it. After a month there, I practically couldn’t take all the boredom and loneliness anymore, so dad let me go home.

I’ve never admitted this to anyone else other than those closest to me because I’m so embarrassed of myself. And I feel like letting everyone know now, because I must be the most selfish person in this whole world. I want everybody to see that I can’t be further from mature, and if I am anything, it’s pure selfishness. I was an ungrateful child who only thinks about herself, and it’s eating me up because the amount of disappointment and pain I’ve caused my parents must be unimaginable, especially for my mom who was sick and obviously needed me there. Right after I got back, I felt so regretful, but there was no use, right? It was just an excuse – to justify the awful thing I have done to make me feel as if I was still capable of actually feeling, but the truth was, I must have been just a heartless robot.

There was nothing that could validate my actions, and it’s something I will have to live with. And in a way, I’m writing this not because I want sympathy or resentment, but just because this is the truth. There is no such thing as universal remote control where you can simply press rewind and change the past whenever you like, and now the guilt stays with me probably forever. I hope nobody else will ever learn this lesson the hard way when things simply are just too late.

During the hardest time, I learned about myself a lot more than I could ever imagine. I learnt that I tend to step away and hide when I’m feeling depressed. I learnt that I am not as extrovert and positive as everybody might think. I learnt that I fear loneliness more than anything. I learnt that I constantly need someone for myself, and that without it, something seems to be missing and I can’t be happy.

But, despite it all, there were some things I could still be grateful about. I am now closer to my family. I’ve spent more than three months home and it’s comforting to know that here you don’t have to worry about a thing because we take care of each others. No matter how bad you behaved, they are the ones that would always forgive. I spent more time with my dad and sisters; we went through all together, ups and downs. Now, I try to be more considerate and responsible, I feel the need to take care of my dad and little sister, I learn to be more understanding, less-selfish, independent and a mediator whenever troubles arise at home, I make more time to talk and ask my dad out, and so we come together in a way that we never did before. And I make a promise to myself that I will be good, I will make him proud because all this time I haven’t been able to do anything significant.

I appreciate my friends more too, because throughout this period, even though they weren’t nearby, even though sometimes I simply shut down and it just didn’t look as if I was making enough effort to keep in touch, they didn’t give up. In the end, their supports mattered to me more than I was willing to admit but they did.

All in all, it has been such an overwhelming year, but I learned my mistakes. As a person, I was a failure and I’m more than happy to let this day go by without any celebrations, because really, there isn’t anything worth celebrating. I will be glad when this day is over. I just want to look forward to next year because things just can’t get any worse, right?

I hope, if anything, everything that has happened would teach me how to be better, how to be all that I wasn’t, changed all that I lacked, all that I regretted, all that I couldn’t do.

I’ve always thought that I was someone full of optimism and it surprised me how much my view has changed towards some things. It’s not that I regret it, I guess now I’m much more realistic. Just like Ethan Hawke said, “life's hard. It's supposed to be. If we didn't suffer, we'd never learn anything.”

I had many ambitions but I did nothing to materialize them yet. I wanted to write more, I wanted to learn Chinese, I wanted to draw more, I wanted to read more, but there just seemed to be no right time and instead I ended up not doing anything. These last months that I’ve been at home, I feel like I’m hibernating. I’m falling back into a comfortable routine where my laundry is magically clean again, food appears on the table at any time of the day, bed made up, and driver ready at a fingertip, but now I’m just simply restless to change, to make the most of my time and to make them proud. There’s finally a reason, a purpose to look forward to in the upcoming year.

Every year, I always said that I wanted to be better, that somehow a birthday marks an importance to change and grow, and I know it shouldn’t work that way because we have to constantly strive to be better and the time isn’t supposed to be limited to a year-period only, but sometimes we need a little push to find the reason to evaluate, to look back at everything you’ve accomplished and mistakes you’ve made. After all, it is your day out of the whole year.

Another year probably can’t do much to this world. I don’t intend to inspire people or make a difference to the humankind. But I just want to keep being myself, the myself who has gone though a lot, the myself who has learned from her mistakes, the myself who still treasures the importance of family and friends, now more than ever, and the myself who has simply known better.

Somewhere along the way, I am now twenty one. And I hope that is not a bad thing.

Tuesday, 18 December 2007

Daily Journal

Saturday, December 15, 2007

Weddings used to be insignificant to me. Not the concept of wedding in itself, more because I’ve attended far too many strangers’ weddings; weddings of people whose faces I didn’t even recognize, weddings of just another random individuals, weddings which I came just for formality and for showing my face up to the couple because it seemed polite and appropriate, but the truth of the matter was, it hardly made any difference at all whether I came or not, because I was just referred as somebody else’s daughter. And I’m not even complaining here because it’s always nice, I guess, to attend weddings. See, there’s the free food and everything. Okay, that’s just one thing, I’m sure there are a lot other reasons to be looked forward to in weddings, I just haven’t known exactly what.

I had little memory of anyone’s weddings, see, there was my uncle’s and I was the little flower girl but I don’t think that counts. After all, I was practically still a toddler then. There were also a lot of relatives’ weddings, but the problem was, those were always the ones which I didn’t even know I was related to until the exact moment. So I’m sorry if there were never any tear-jerking moments in my dictionary.

The last couple of weddings that I attended to when I was here in Jakarta were those held in Four Seasons and J.W. Marriott. They were undoubtedly rich and fancy. In the Four Seasons, the reception was in the private suite, so it wasn’t as big as the usual ballroom suite, but something tells me it could have cost probably even more. The reception place was divided into several smaller rooms with exquisite dishes and there was also an outdoor space where we could get some air and enjoy a cozier and more relaxing ambience. It was really a beautiful place but all we did there was eating and then we’re off. I have to say it held no memory whatsoever. I mean, except for the place and food, of course. Have I mentioned that they served sushi there? I definitely will remember it for that one fact only.

The one in J.W. Marriott was even fancier. The ballroom was gigantic, and the food could feed practically the rest of the third world counties. The reception was much more traditional and proper. It seemed a bit over-the-top, if you asked me. With all the ballads performance? But then again, maybe there’s no such thing as too over-the-top in a wedding. After all, there will only be one in someone’s entire life so I’d spare them some mercy. They could hire ballerinas; they could invite the president, they could serve wedding cake made entirely by diamonds and gold, they could even flaunt a-million-dollar-wedding gown if they wished and you wouldn’t hear even a remark from me. From what I can tell, they served sushi too, but it was already gone when I realized! All that’s left were pieces of the ice that was used to chill the sushi, and not even a single salmon was visible. Although disappointed, I tasted very delicious mushroom soup there, which reminded me a bit of the one at the Soup Spoon. The soup was just so thick and chunks of mushroom were just heavenly. I made a mental note to do exactly that (visit the Soup Spoon and have sushi buffet) in Singapore.

When I attended the wedding in Bali, which was of two persons I didn’t even know, it was probably the first time after the longest time that I felt some pickles of human emotions. The guy seemed so genuine and romantic and I think the sunset and the ocean had something to do with that. The place was absolutely gorgeous and the ceremony was done in such grace and elegance and although it might seem too overwhelming at times, (imagine: food parade and fire-dance performance, oh, and how could I forget the seven-course meals?) somehow they made it look real and sincere.

It’s always nice to be reminded sometimes that my heart isn’t made of steel. Well.

Today is the first after a long time I witnessed a special wedding, of someone that is really close to me ever since I was a baby. He’s practically a real brother and it could be weird to think of him as a married man now. Time really flies, doesn’t it?
I’m so happy for him and I look at him with a new respect now, because he is strong and dependable and I have no doubt that he will make a great family.

All this wedding talk is making me a bit light-headed. I’m just gonna go back to my usual insignificant choice of topics: food, gossips and ramblings?

Sunday, December 16, 2007

So. What occupies my mind on this lazy Sunday? Let’s see. I just had my first cup of coffee today, and you may call me as somewhat a coffee junkie these days. There were times when I had fruit juices every morning (orange, carrot, tomato, and not even I knew what else my maid put in there, I was just too trusting and innocent to yet find out), and when I was in Perth and Singapore I was totally obsessed with Milo that’s all I thought about first thing after waking up: a glass of yummy hot chocolate. Now, back home, the craving shifted to cappuccino. Dad is a sucker for this thing too, so imagine the two of us still in pajamas and sleepy-looking faces, sitting every morning with cups of coffee, talking gibberish and having ‘where are you going today?’ and ‘can I go to the mall and shop and waste your money away?’ discussion. It’s my typical morning routine here and it’s priceless. Ha!

But as the coffee-obsession continues to strike in, I find myself craving for more caffeine during the day. So sometimes, I gulp down ice coffee again at lunch time and have another cappuccino in the evening just because I’m feeling rather hungry but it’s simply too early for meals so coffee is the solution.

But you know, I think it isn’t bad at all. An acquaintance of mine admitted that he used to drink coffee up to 20 plus cups per day. Now that’s what I called addiction. He’d be depressed without a rush of caffeine. So as long as I don’t cross that line, I think I’ll be okay.

Monday, December 17, 2007

Yesterday I went out with dad to check out cameras, because face it, my camera is gazillion years old. It doesn’t have attractive exterior, the screen is tiny, the battery is leaking, and it’s still only 4 mega-pixels. Even the new Nokia phone has better camera resolution and it’s not even a real camera. So I think it’s about time to do a bit of upgrading and even though I probably am the most technology-blind-person in the entire planet, at least I gave it a shot.

Dad wasn’t helping either. He left me alone to do his own business and engage in conversation with his friend while I was standing there in front of shops displaying numerous cameras which to me, on first glance, looked exactly identical and I was like a fish out of the water. I didn’t know which brand to look, which qualification to look for, and before you could say anything, yes, I know I’m hopeless.

So, I just grabbed one of the salesperson there and asked him to give me some points, or more like, a lesson from Idiot’s Guide to Buying a Camera book. Olympus is of course, supposed to be good, but I was opting for something else. Sony seemed good too, and at first I was interested in one Sony type because frankly, the exterior was just great and I do want to have a gorgeous-looking-camera. It was only available in standard silver color, though, and again, my sis and dad’s cameras are all in silver so I thought a change might be good. But that wasn’t quite the deciding factor. I had to take the price into consideration also, and to be honest I didn’t even know how much a decent camera is supposed to cost. My sister’s Olympus camera was worth 4 million but it was bought quite a while ago and at that time, that model was the newest so it must have been expensive, although it’s only 4 mega pixels. But, that Olympus camera looks good, it has a lens lid which opens and closes automatically and maybe 4 million is worth it. But I have to be more reasonable, right? I wouldn’t just pick up the most expensive or the most technology-advanced camera in sight, you may think I’m a shopaholic but I am at least a very considerate one. (My dad would so disagree on this, he would say, ‘then don’t buy a camera altogether so not a penny of my money would be spent’)

So I was looking at some options of camera which only cost around a million to two. Okay, drop the ‘only’ in the last sentence.

And the Sony type I was talking before was just on that price range and the guy filled me in on all the qualities, it was 7 or so mega pixels. Personally, I liked the outlook of that particular one and the screen was also big while the other profiles were basically standard.

But then I saw Samsung camera and I fell in love too. And the sales person saw it right through me and quickly went to take out the model for me to check out. He was pretty excited too at this point and told me all the good points and while I was looking at both the Sony and Samsung types to compare, he went on to say that the Samsung model is far more superior to the Sony one, although luckily for me, the price is cheaper. I asked him how that could be possible and he smiled while simply letting his fingers runs through the word ‘Sony’ in the camera. Okay, so it’s a matter of which one is the more famous brand? It doesn’t really matter to me, though, I think Samsung is a perfectly good brand too, and if it so happens that the better option is cheaper, then who am I to complain?

Anyway, the Samsung was 8.1 mega pixels with better screen resolution and it already has face-detector and anti-blur selections. It could take multiple shots at the same time, take pictures straight from the video and also take 30 continuous shots just by one click, resulting in a cartoon-like-effect, if you know what I mean. The charger is in the same cable as its USB, and you could even charge the camera from your computer using the USB cable so you can do so in the car, or wherever else. And you know what’s better? It has one in red! I am so in love.

I spent quite some time playing with the camera, clicking here and there until finally dad came. He gave me ‘are you sure you want this?’ look while I excitedly nodded.

No, no, I haven’t bought it..yet. It’s not quite a spontaneous purchase but in the mean time, I don’t see what’s wrong with drooling and dreaming over a perfectly gorgeous looking camera. It’s so close I could almost taste it.

Obviously I need to move on. I didn’t realize I have written this much, but I just can’t stop talking when I’m excited. Anyway, before the camera hunting, I accompanied Dad see a warehouse sale on electronics. The place was this huge, unmaintained, dirty and gloomy-looking garage and for the event, it was filled with electronic stuffs aligned and little stands in the side and the people were just scattering around, busily looking for the best deals and boy, there were a lot of people. It was hot and damp, and I braced through it because dad wanted to check prices of some refrigerators, and I’m sorry for sounding like a prissy, but it wasn’t top on my favorite places to be. I was more than happy when he was finally done with his business. I was happiest when he scurried me down the hall to the exit sign, I think. After the camera hunting, Dad and I had a quick green-bean dessert at a nearby shop and at night we were out again for some express grocery shopping.

My younger sister and I topped up the night by watching Asian Idol on TV and I was real happy when Hadi from Singapore walked away with the title. All in all, yesterday was a really good day. Now, if you excuse me, I’m going to think of that Samsung L-830 camera again.

So far as the day goes on today, it hasn’t been quite historical yet. It’s Monday so Dad’s off for work and my younger sister is busily playing play station which is all she does these days, and I just finished watching ‘Derailed’ on VCD that I rented yesterday. And we’ve also had a really delicious lunch, courtesy of my great cook. The menu were macaroni, sausages, carrot and corn soup (no, they were mixed together, c’mon, I didn’t eat that many kinds of soup in one meal!), deep fried prawn, fried frogs in sweet butter sauce, and my personal favorite, hot fried mushrooms. Homemade food is so much better on most occasions.

Friday, 14 December 2007

@ Internet Cafe

I'm writing at an internet cafe now, which, sufficient to say, is something I've never done before, primarily because internet was always something I took for granted and a life-necessity I've got without having to work for. It's a normal day for me to go browsing all day long and watching series and blogging and chatting and basically everything one can possibly do when is faced with internet.

Anyway, it is interesting to be in an internet place, moreover, having to pay for the amount of time you spend! It's just funny, I feel like a dog is just ready to bite me in the arse. Okay, this is so totally unnecessary.

I wanted to write about my trip to Bali but that would be a very long post indeed and I better do it some other time when the clock is not constantly ticking away.

Just one thing I'm going to say about the trip: it was fabulous.



We were pampered at the hotel, went to the most expensive wedding ever where I got 7-course meals complete with wine, did some shopping, hung out at the beach, sat in cafes and restaurants at night, sat in the sand looking at the ocean, and I guess most of all, I had the most wonderful companion.



I stayed there for four days three nights and everything was just great. It has been awhile since the whole family had a trip anywhere, so it was always nice to spend time together and have fun.

Okay then. That's it for now, I hope to go back to Singapore at early January and I'll have be 21 by then! Wow.

P.S: Babe, I already sent you a text, but just in case somehow you didn't get it yesterday, I want to wish you the best birthday ever! It's another year for us to rip the place apart! I hate you!;)

Is it too much to ask for a pizza around here?!

This evening I called what I thought was Domino’s Pizza. When we were smaller we used to order cheese pizza all the time because we’re just suckers for cheese in general, plus this tradition has gone on ever since we watched Home Alone. Anyway, the conversation went on like this, and I’m not even exaggerating.

“Hello? Dominos’ Pizza?”

“Yes?”

“I want to order pizza and get it delivered?”

“Yes?”

“Um.. Cheese pizza, please?”

“Yes.”

“...”

“...”

(Shouldn’t he ask me which size I want?)

“Well? How many pieces are there in the small size?”

“Yes.”

“Huh? How many?”

“Yes.”

“HOW MANY SLICES ARE THERE IN THE SMALL SIZE???”

“Hm..Yaa…around 6 or something..”

(...What the…???!!)

“How about the medium size?”

“Well..maybe 10 or 9?”

“MAYBE?!!!!”

“...”

“Fine! The medium size then!”

“...”

“How much is it?”

“Yes.”

“HOW MUCH IS IT?????”

“...”

“BEEJEZUS! HOW MUCH IS THE MEDIUM SIZE?!!”

“Yea…50 thousand, lah!”

“Are you kidding me??!! 50 thousand for MEDIUM SIZE?”

“Around 49 thousand?”

“FUCK! WHAT DO YOU BLOODY MEAN BY ‘AROUND’?!!! HOW MUCH IS THE FIXED PRICE?!!!!!”

“Yaa…”

“!@#$%%^^!#$$!!!!!!”

“Yes..”

By this time, I was so frustrated I almost scratched my head off! No, I almost BANGED MY SKULL TO THE WINDOW SHIELD!!!

IS IT THAT HARD FOR A GIRL TO ORDER A PIZZA AROUND HERE???!!!

I banged the telephone down, feeling hopelessly frustrated and HUNGRY! You know, with that kind of person in charge of HANDLING CALLS FROM CUSTOMERS, I wouldn’t be too surprised if the next thing I know, I would get VARIOUS PARTS OF HUMAN BODY instead of PIZZA delivered right to my doorstep!

So we didn’t get the cheese pizza which we craved and dreamt in our sleep, but in the end, we bought the pizza from another place, this time from a person who actually could hear properly!

Wednesday, 12 December 2007

Paradise

Just got back from Bali!

Bali wasn't called 'Land of God' for nothing! It was absolutely gorgeous! The beach, the scenery, the people, the ambience, everything was just so different in a great way;)

Anyway, I can't write much now, but I promise I will soon!

Take care, everyone!:)

Sunday, 2 December 2007

Nothing That Could Kill Me.

It’s not even a spectacular, set-the-record-event or anything, but I think it was pretty significant. Now to give you a little background, my right eye has been red for quite some time now, which in itself didn’t raise any alarm to me before because those things happen sometimes, especially here where we breathe dust and smoke everyday. Besides, one day it would get red, then it got better on the next, so for a few weeks I didn’t pay more attention to it than I had to, which was merely basic, consisting of eye drop and temporary absent use of contacts.

But this week I decided to take an action because it started to bother me badly. I’m not a big fan of glasses. I don’t mind wearing glasses occasionally when I read at night or when I stay at home, but on day-to-day-basic, I can’t say that I like it. Maybe I have been so used to wearing contacts, maybe I have been used to the feeling of having nothing hanging from my ear and my nose, or maybe in a more superficial reason, I simply don’t look like myself in one. All in all, let’s just say that my sentiment towards glasses won’t bring you to tears or inspire you in any way anytime soon. Unlike my mutually-symbiotic relationship with, let’s say, cheese and camera. Ha, kidding.

So, I went to the doctor to get my eye checked. Well, technically, I went to the hospital, but it seems way over the top and dramatic to say that I’ve been to a hospital. So for once I prefer to be un-dramatic although that can be surprising for some. Maybe I just mature significantly.

I waited in the hall for the doctor for some good ten minutes and luckily, dad was with me so I had someone to bug. I wasn’t nervous or anything, but I guess going to any doctor is bound to give you a certain uncomfortable feeling. I always feel like the doctor would know everything at the instant second he saw me, that he simply just prolonged the agony by making use of those complicated machines and examining me closely. Well, so, I finally got in and explained my complaints to him, and I was asked to sit in the intimidating chair where I had to press my head into a hole in the machine. The nurse lifted my chair high, as if I was too short for the doctor to even have a look. If I didn’t know better or wasn't too busy preparing myself for the worst possibility that I could suddenly turn color-blind or whatever, I would think that that was almost an insult.

He looked at my eye for a minute, undoubtedly having it at super-zoom and probably seeing my super-dust-polluted eye in all its glory. I don’t even want to imagine. Then he twisted the skin above my eye, and with that, he said that I had an infection.

Now, I think this is the best scenario. I mean, he didn’t say ‘you have cataract’ or mentioned anything with the words ‘blind’, ‘color’, ‘abnormal’, ‘surgery’ or ‘terrible unfortunate incident for someone so young’, so I think ‘infection’ is sufficient enough for me to be relieved.

He said it was bacteria, he told me not to use contacts for the time being, sterilize it, and use the medicines he later prescribed. He then continued by scribbling something down at my folio, (clearly intimidating), and drawing what’s supposedly my eye, and adding marks around the infected area.

Anyway, so I’ve been living with my glasses for these past two days. Those, and my medicines as well, which I had easy since those were only two sets of eye drops, non invasive at all, I mean, I wasn’t poked by needles or had my ass inserted by pills or whatever. But every time I use the eye drop, my eye gets itchy for some seconds and I keep having a disturbing image in my head that at that exact moment, the ‘drop’ is fighting all sorts of germs erratically inside this apparently-non-virginal-eye.


I was told to report back to the doctor in a week’s time and I really hope it will have been better by then. No, I hope it’ll get better tomorrow. I’d like to think I’m an optimist. Ha!

Monday, 26 November 2007

Finally, Again.

After what feels like an eternity of silence and complete introvert ness, I finally decided to update my blog, even though doing so from here (read: a place without sufficient internet connection) must be the most inconvenient thing ever, more inconvenient than that one time that I had to sit in my friend’s car’s baggage just because I was the only girl and he was kindly enough to think about my wellbeing because he said, quoted, “I don’t have the heart to let you being squashed in the backseat with these smelly guys like a sardine,” so I had to endure an hour trip to a party squatting down (like in the toilet) with my legs curled up and boy, I had had to win the national champion for the most awkward yoga-istic position ever. Well, anyway, you get the picture of the level of discomfort that I have to endure just to post a single post in the web. I’ve been putting it off for a long time but this morning I suddenly am overwhelmed with the desire to catch up with the rest of the moving world. I feel like I have to, otherwise my current-stagnant life will be declared and finalized because no one in the outside would even know I still exist and they would erase my name from their contact lists and just like that, technically I would be gone from the surface of the socialized-human-being-circles.

Okay, 5 seconds into this and I’m already babbling. Good way to impress the readers.

I’m doing okay here, I guess. I’m a little bit homesick, to be honest, which is funny because this is home and I don’t know since when that I started to consider Singapore my home too. I just realized that apparently I do. But then again, maybe it’s more than just the place. It’s just, I do nothing here and I feel my youth slipping away…No, no, I mean, I feel like I can do a lot of useful things back home. And it’s not like I’m saying that I’m completely useless here, well, I’m here for my dad and my sisters, keep them company and make noise in the house so it can never get too quiet and everything, but what about me? Technically I do nothing here besides going out with family and friends, watching DVDs and far too much MTV and E!, playing playstation, eating out and enjoying the luxury of maids and driver’s service, shopping, attending weddings..Believe me, it gets boring after a while. Sure you get to have fun without worrying about school and jobs but most of the time, you just want your activities back because then you wouldn’t feel like you’re just sitting here and being stuck while everyone else is moving forward. Guess when you’re in the midst of a hectic life, you wish for a calm and tranquil holiday, and when you do have one, all you want is the sound of phone’s reminders and days full of schedules and activities again.

So just to catch up, I spent last weekend staying over at a hotel in a beach. Believe me, it sounded a lot better than it actually was. Firstly, it was freaking hot out there and it has gotten impossible to be able to enjoy yourself without constant worry that you might burst into flame in any second. There was just this boiling and scorching heat that penetrated you straight to the brain, I think my skin’s shade has blackened at least a few strips down. Well, at least I saw the sea. I could say that proudly and let you all think that I ran around in the glamorous beach with a bikini on and drank lychee martini while suntanning and a masseur ready at a fingertip.

Here I also have the chance to attend too many weddings that I wish to care. I just realize that people are getting married all the time! I’m not really complaining as it gives me an excuse to dress up and score free food. And by now I’m certain that not in a million years will I ever hire ballerinas to dance in my wedding, no matter how romantic and exquisite it sounds!

Next month is going to be an exciting time for me! My closest cousin is getting married, I’m going to Bali, and there’s this one huge thing I’m really looking forward to! No, not my turning-21-birthday! Gosh suddenly I feel so old and elderly. No, the thing is, there’s another big thing and I don’t want to say it now but let’s just say that the day will probably be the most exciting and terrifying time ever.

I’m getting fatter too here. Hello?! Have you ever tasted the food here? It’s just awesome, you never ran out of good food around here. I’m constantly conscious of the level of sugar and fat that I have put on my mouth but I just can’t stop it.

I’m even writing here while munching over my favorite snack at the moment – milk bread. A heavenly soft and round bread with a sweet taste that is just pure addictive.

But other than my ballooning body and a slight change of hairstyle, I’m still the same old, same old. Still a camera addict, if you know what I mean.

Just a few pictures and you won't believe how much time I needed just to post these! Internet here is so unbelievable.











Hope to write again soon;) In the mean time, take care!